You'll never know until it happens...

Finally, I realized that, no matter how hard you've tried, you might still not be able to get what you want. Even though you never expected anything from anyone, but somehow, the feelings of disappointments do come to attack you. It's so depressing... And what made things worse is when you feel that, it's all because of you yourself! Everyone is blaming you for the things. And before that you kept telling yourself that everything will be fine when you've tried your best, but it's just different with what you've thought. You have never thought about the "reality" and "cruelty" in the world.

And a word for the one whom I always thought of, whom I always do my best for: DISAPPOINTED.

久了，也累了。

到底是多久了呢？
我也忘了。
只记得，很久，很久了。

你还记得吗？

我们有多久没有聊天了？
聊些生活中的琐碎事。
就像以前那样。

真的，很久了。

还不是一样？

不管有，
或没有，
你还是一样。

这次，我不再妥协了。

我累了。

 

I really missed the one using this phone.

总是一个人练习着一个人

是我变了吗？还是这个世界也变了呢？
我不晓得。

慢慢的，我发现，
我总是一个人练习这一个人。
没人懂得。
也没有晓得。

就这样，一个人，去练习着一个人。

我是你的“福气”吗？

２３了。
是个令人感到害怕的数字。


感谢所有曾经出现在我的生命中的人。
这２３年来，谢谢你们的陪伴。
不管你们带给我的，是开心的；伤心的；难过的；
这些，都是我的回忆。
也因为这些回忆，我才能够生存到这一天。

或许，这也是我最后一次的生日。
或许，今天，将会是我在这世界上最后的一天。

我并不感到可惜，也不觉得遗憾。
我很认真地对待每一个人，每一件事。

只是，认识我的你们，是否觉得，认识了我是你们的福气呢？
这句话，看似简单，但是，你们真的了解了吗？

我想，我是知道答案的。
对你们而言，我并不是你们的朋友。
我只是一个有利用价值的人。
不管我付出了多少，对你们而言，就只有着“利益”的存在。

认识你们，是我的福气。
可是，我并不是你们的福气。
再见了。

谢谢你的《那些年》。

终于看了《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》。
原以为，我会哭的稀里哗啦的。
哈哈！我没有！
不是说不好看。
也不是不感动。（如果是十分，我会给它满分）

在看的途中，身边都是欢乐的笑声。
的确，他们真的很搞笑！
然而，我却一直在思考。

看着男主角与女主角，就这样，分开了。
然而，男主角却不曾后悔。
我明白他了。
所以，我没有哭。

真的很想对你说。
我想开了。
我不再执着了。
如果你的生活是快乐的，那么，我又何必要苦苦纠缠呢？

或许，我与男主角的情况，也还蛮类似的。
所以，我挺明白他的感觉，他的决定。

感谢你。
让我在人海中遇见了你。
也让我曾经拥有热血般的日子。

我不再执着了。

我愿意成为“柯震东”。

一直的守护着你，“沈佳宜”。

Can you?

It was kinda funny for me to read an article about long distance relationship. Yeah, does it applicable on me?!
I tried not to think about it.
I tried not to say anything.
I tried not to disturb you.
But I can't.
There was a part in the article, which i really agreed on:
" Trust is very important in long distance relationship, and that makes the relationship beautiful..."
Yeah! I agreed! I USED to be very confident on it.
I trust you all the time.
But since the day you've decided to leave me, TRUST, seemed to be so far away from me.
And if TRUST doesn't exist in the relationship, what would it be?!
I trusted you, and until now, I'm still telling myself that I trust you. Yeah, in fact, I do believe in you.
But you've ruined everything.
Do you know that, it hurts me?!
You asked me : " Why you down so much?"
I'm not down... I'm feeling insecure..
Do you get what i'm trying to say here?
I still remember every words that you've told me before and now..
But you acted differently..
Which one should i believe to?
Can you tell me the truth?
Soon, I'll be a 23 year-old guy..
I really hope that, this year, I can get something from you...
I never asked anything from you, but this year, i hope i can get it from you...
A promise.
Can you do that for me?

Here is the article:

WHY DO YOU PREFER LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP?

They're stronger. They mean a lot more. Well to me that is, I mean think about it. Trust is the biggest thing in a relationship. If you can trust someone who lives hundreds of miles away, then that's beautiful. Sure you don't get to hug the person, kiss the person, wake up next to the person, but you get to talk to them, hear them. Think about how amazing it's going to be when you finally get to meet them. And how perfect it's gonna be. You fight less. You laugh more. They're beautiful. And I respect anyone who is in one. They're hard, they're harder than a lot of things, but they're worth it in the end. Why let distance ruin your feelings for someone? Feelings are feelings, love is love, that's not gonna change. I love long distance relationship for a lot of reasons. But mostly because they're beautiful.

We're beautiful. Do you know that?