Am I a fool?

There's always a question in my mind, not for anyone but for myself.
"Am i a fool?"

Sometimes i do think that i'm a fool, played around by people.
But was it all my faults?!
I didn't do anything to make you all fooled me, or maybe, i'm the one fooling myself.


Started to feel tired of being fooled now.
I'm not a fool, and please, don't ever fool me!

I'm Nothing.

Just in a sudden, i feel that, i'm nothing.
Everyone is doing a good job, with their ideas.
But me?! Nothing.
I was just..Blank.
While others are working together, i'm alone.
I'm not smart.
I'm a guy, but it does not mean that i can do it all by myself.
Who can actually give me encouragement?
I'm too tired to be a great student.
I'm just don't know what to do.
At this moment. I'm nothing.

I'm tired.

I'm tired.
Yes, you are wrong.
I do feel tired. Because i'm just a human, like you.

When i'm wanna put things down,
you came and told me, never give up.

When i'm up to the hills again,
you came and told me, it's not worth for you to do so.

For you, you do know what are you doing and what are the things that you want.
But, have you ever been thinking about me?
To you, who am i?
You'll just do things that you like to do.
But, what about me??!!
Nothing.
A fool?
A clown?

Please, never HOT AND COLD to me.
I don't like it
And please let me know if you aren't there for me.
It's good for you, so that you won't waste your time and no more disturbances from me.
You can just go wherever you want, do things that you like to do.
No more news from me.
Is that what you want?
I can do it, if that's what you want.

I'm tired.