否定的力量

过去的几个月，我想，我又回到了低潮了。
曾经对自己的一切感到光荣和肯定，
然而，
就在那一刻，
我迟疑了。

我开始觉得不安了。
我开始否定自己了。

我可以吗？
我是对的吗？

我不肯定了。
我不知道如何是好。

我真的不好。
我否定了这一切。

我想说的是，
否定，
你已经把我压得喘不过气了。

开心吗？

Real-self?

I've just attended a training session before i started my internship in Nestle.

Well, I wouldn't say that it's a training session but it's more like a counseling session.

Yep!!! It's definitely a FREE counseling session.

It's kinda weird when my couch, Mr Alang, asked me to write down my "images" and also "real-self".

I didn't have any problem in writing the "images" part, but when i came to the "real-self"...

No!!

What??!!

Yes, you got it! My answer is NO!

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY "REAL-SELF"!

After the training session, Mr Alang told me that..When was the last time you thought about your "real-self"?!

And of course I couldn't give any answer..

Yeah..who am i actually??
Like what he said, "You are wearing mask all the times without knowing who is the one inside your body, your heart.."

I didn't know what should I say about it.

It's true. Yeah. I don't know anything about my "real-self". 

Simply because I'm a FAKE guy.

I always cares for others' feelings and thoughts. 

How do they feel when they talked to me or looked at me...

But is it right?

Should i just leave the "real-self" at the back and continuing to wear the mask in my life?

The End.

When there is a "START",

there will be an "END".

极限！

我的极限就到这里。

疯了！

爽！

I need you.

I'm afraid of it.
I'm worried.
Can you..please..come back to me??
I need you...
Please..
I swear i won't do that anymore...
Please...
Come back to me...
Without you, my life is just nothing...
I'm nothing...

Close your eyes. Clear your heart. Let it go.

I couldn't see anything.

I couldn't feel anything.

I couldn't think for it.

What can I do?

I don't know.

There's a question in my heart:

" What can you do when your good isn't good enough??? "

That's a song that i would like to recommend to anyone of you.

"Get it out" by Glee.

~Lalalalalala~

It has been a long time i didn't write anything on blogspot.com.

Yeah! I did do that very often last time...

But it's all about moody stuffs..haha!

So if you guys wanna know anything about me (or how moody i am), you can always ASK me for the links!

过去的点点滴滴。

过去一切的巧合。

过去一切的事实。

就这样，忘了吧！

随意。随心。

这就是我现在想要过的生活。

今天起，请教我 - 忧郁王子！

任何想要忧郁的人，都可以来找我！

我会好好的协助你们！